You know, people always say this

"If you love someone, let it go...if it comes back to you, it's yours...but if it doesn't then it never was..."

I thought it was true, but it didn't apply to me...

He was gone before...and he came back...I thought he will forever be mine...but I was wrong...so wrong...He left me again...I wonder why things turn out to be like this...we were still on friends term before...and now, we are total strangers...

And I found myself asking the same question again..."why am I crying?"

The heart aches...so much so that I just want to take it out and crush it...

I love him...to the point that I will die for him...but people will ask if it's worth it...to die for a guy who no longer love me...and long ago didn't treasure me...

I don't know...

But I know I'm not the one that hurts the most now...and neither will it be him...he can't be bothered...

He's just so cruel...to do all these things...

Once again, Time will heal these old wounds of mine that has been ripped apart by the same person who inflicted them on me...

You know what vivian, pick yourself up...you know you've got to...you can't let this affect your work...wipe those tears away and stand up...bear the pain and walk through those thorn bushes without shedding another tear again...

"I'm sorry...I know I've hurt you..." I know this sentence is not going to help much but I'm still going to say it...You are probably even more hurt than I am...Sorry that I brought this upon you...but you know the reason why I cannot accept...yet...Will you bear the pain and wait or will you choose to abandon it and walk away?