oh how I hate it when I'm being judgmental...when my emotions took control over me...like seriously, WHEN WILL I EVER LEARN?! Gah!!!!!!!!!!! *sulk* so irritated at myself... why did i even get irritated in the first place? cos the runner not fast enough to pick up the drinks? come on, he is new. i don think you yourself can make it that fast either. or is it because you are blaming yourself for not doing the cleaning fast on your side? I have no idea why cleaning took so long today. seriously, it is so easy to say "well, learn from your mistakes" and then when the circumstances arrive, all the mistakes made before start to come back up again...and there, that's my problem. Solution? still thinking about it... Gosh, there are so many things that Man need to learn... patience, love, understanding, kindness etc etc... no wonder we are given a lifetime to learn them...zzz... but argh!!!!!!!!! what if they complain? i don't think so. since i didn't do anything that bad. but you never noe, nowadays my boutique seem to have alot of customers complaining. they complain le then come back again...I'm not sure if that's a good thing though...no point worrying, what's done is done...feel that my worry is all for nothing only... oh God, help me T_T
on the good note, finally after dono how many tries i can draw a nice heart on my coffee! yay! now just need to refine it and make it bigger on the kenya cup. ^^
omg, should i transfer to another place when someone else takes over the boutique? ( it's just my own prediction) like, what exactly are my reasons for doing so? it can be quite a struggle. the thoughts that are running through my head are like this:
" I dont want to work with him... he takes control, that's it... I don wan to work for him... he doesn't even take pride in whatever he is doing!"
" but transferring for a reason like that...isn't it childish? just because you don like him...not that anyone over there does...next time you wont get a luxury like tt you noe"
" it is precisely next time cannot so now do it ma..."
" you shouldn't be thinking this way... you think you wan to transfer jiu can meh?"
" pray to God?"
maybe i can get a better reason when my timetable is out... haiz, really, if it's not for the vision and the opportunity, I would have left... press on my dear, yes, press on. Keep your eyes on the end result. oh God, please, let that project come to fruition. Place me under someone who is willing to coach me. Put me in a place where I can learn about service and coffee daily as I work. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.
oh well, think i shall end here. think too much till i dono what else to type liao
